“You know some people are scared shit of me.”
“You sound like you are so proud of it.”
Ouch.
My friend really got me questioning myself there. He is right. Why do I sound like I am so proud of it. Do I really enjoy intimidating people for the fun of it? That would make me *gasp* a bully!
Oh dear. Oh no no no. OMG.
I don’t want to be a bully. I’ve been bullied many times before especially when I was younger. The feeling is terrible that it caused so much shame, fear and anxiety. There are some who gave me nightmares for years even. So really, the last thing I want to be is to impose the same hurt to others.
But what I really want to achieve is to be assertive. To be able to deliver my points across clearly with confidence not arrogance & not stepping on anybody’s tail. I want to learn to listen more and not always talk over people with my loud high-pitched voice.
To be more respectful of others like how I want to be respected.
Bimbo
